Why must I analyze
everything? Why can I not be like the birds of the air and
the lilies of the field? Are my purpose and duties not very
clear? I must eat to keep alive, clean to be healthy.
I have all kinds of natural tendencies - to love, to be happy, to
seek beauty and pleasure - and I learn that for every action
there is a reaction and I learn what action to pursue to produce
the desired reaction. I really dont need books and
philosophers to tell me that when I hate, everyone is miserable ,
and that feelings and emotions radiate from one being to another
and that a desirable situation begins with my desirable actions.
I have experienced hurricanes, tornados, a depression, the effects of a world war, several earthquakes, cancer, a childs death, rape, physical and verbal abuse. I dont need to be threatened that the physical earth reacts to its treatment - that a lovely little bird I am admiring is suddenly grasped, squealing and fluttering, as the talons of a great hawk grasp it and take it away for dinner. Yes, I am aware of all these things and I dont need prophets or books pressing me with fear thoughts that if I am not loving enough the world will end. I am as loving as I will ever be. I am the culmination of my thoughts and actions and the only truth I really know is what I myself experience.
I will not be subjected to fear thoughts. Fear is used to control - it has spawned every war and religion - and I will not be its hapless victim. I met a friend a couple of days ago. We had a nice conversation over coffee until she began: the horrors that are about to befall us. I said, "Yes, Ive read about all those prophecies in dozens of books." Not to be deterred and as though insisting that I must be as terrified as she seemed to be (for she was in the process of moving to a safe area) she continued, "But this is not in books, this is Cherokee prophecy by word of mouth and you must be prepared." I replied that I am as prepared as I will ever be and doing just what I am supposed to be doing. I have experienced and survived much pain and tragedy. As they say, shit happens, so I flush it away and go out and pick some flowers. I feel certain that no matter what, there will always be wild flowers.
This body of mine, was given to me in good condition - I was blessed and it behooves me to maintain this precious gift with every means available - when a problem occurs (as problems do) I ask to be guided to the correct solution and accept the guidance and use it to the best of my ability.
And I modify my diet or habits in an attempt to effect an extra sensory experience, it is not because of some spiritual duty or obligation - it is a scientific experimentation based entirely on my own curiosity and desire to learn. I believe that all of the apparitions and messages we receive are from specific entities and not from the source of creation - after all, creation is the main message and needs no interpreter.
As for my spiritual nature - I have an awareness that I must be a part of whatever exists or did exist from the beginning - I communicate with this essence of my being - and from observing what I create with my thoughts and ideas I surmise that, in a similar manner, I was also created. Now what kind of thought must have created me? I feel I am a product of a loving thought and as such I communicate with the creator. I see other products of these thoughts in everything in nature and I feel a deep sense of belonging and oneness. Perhaps some of my loving overtures are tinted with a speck of selfishness and perhaps it is because I was created with an instinct for survival - whatever the reason, I am not going to analyze and categorize my every emotion. If I am happy and loving, I will hug it to my soul and let no apprehension or worry hinder the spontaneity and the joy that is my inheritance. I have learned that thoughts radiate and therefore every happy thought is a gift to the world.